WTH!?

tears drained my face.
i dunno why i cried.

Being Neglected??
Loving you??
or
Still cant put u behind..

i have just got a beating frm my aunt.cos i talk back, fight back. This is my first time reacted this way. I never react this way to an adult before. Guess i have grown and become vryvry rebellion.
Of cause rebellion. Since young i never had much time with my parents.
Days after days, we drift apart. They don't understand me. I don't understand them.
The only thing i know that she's my mum, he's my dad.
I never feel that kind of love before. That kind of being love by family before. Nobody knows how i hurt. Staying in a relative house. I am just like a stranger to them. It is like their step-daughter or step-sister. That kind of feeling being neglected, seen biased, is really terrible.
However.......


Thinking carefully, i din really cried because of this.i am sure it is because of this song-IF I LET YOU GO.
It brings back alot memories. I dunno why i dun wan or rather dare to tell anyone.

I know for sure it is because of you Jeremy. For a period of time, i tried to hate you but, i know, i failed to. Why must you bring back soo much memories??

I still cant forget your face. I still cant forget your smile. I still cant forget your words.

I enjoy listening to you.
I enjoy being your listener.
I enjoy hanging
out with you.

I really cant get you off my mind.

I have gotten myself a boyfriend. I know i love him. Do i?? Am i like in doubt?? I dunno what am i doing.

Why am i feeling this way??
Why am i in doubt whether i love him or not??
Why am i soo sure that i once love you??
Why cant i be 100% sure??
Why must you do this to me Jeremy Tang??
Why..can you just tell me why
you make me suffer soo much??
Why must i be the one hurting??
Why must i
be the one suffering in silence??
Why cant i just forget you??
I have
tried soo hard but just why i just cant??
Why must you make my life soo
hard??
Why must it be me??
Why not her??
Why must i love you??
Why must i fall in you??
Why must i love you??
Why you make me fall
in love to you??
Why you make me love you??
Why must it be you??
Why
am i crying for you??
Why cant i let you go??
Why there isn't any
solutions to make me stop clinging on you??

NUMB..I AM SURE I AM NUMB ONCE AGAIN..YOU HAVE MAKE ME NUMB.sorry Gupeng..i dunno wad i am doing..but i am sure i love you